Retrospect歌詞

[00:30.02]I’m so sorry for how I was
[00:33.05]I know I was a lot to handle
[00:37.77]But when you’ve been broken like I have
[00:42.16]It’s hard to trust in love
[00:45.80]Is the thought of me stuck in your head?
[00:49.77]Or am I just a memory
[00:53.46]Faded to the back of your mind
[00:57.93]Never to be seen
[01:01.72]I’m writing this song here
[01:04.99]While I’m empty
[01:08.17]It’s the only time I can
[01:12.13]Because my bottle is the same
[01:16.48]It’s hard to put it into words
[01:20.44]How I feel these days
[01:23.86]It’s hard to imagine things will change
[01:27.98]Oh how I wish, Oh how I wish you’d stay
[01:32.16]
[01:32.77]I just want to feel the beating of your chest
[01:36.58]Against my head again
[01:39.60]When I fall asleep, frayed and bleak
[01:43.62]I miss the way you held me close
[01:46.93]I’m finding it hard to cope without you
[01:50.90]I’m sorry I had to be this way
[01:54.18]I couldn’t help it, I’m not okay
[01:57.12]I’d rather die than watch you walk away
[02:01.88]
[02:04.35]I’m finding it hard to focus
[02:07.48]The closest I get to you is in my dreams
[02:11.32]But I no longer sleep
[02:14.49]The nights turn into mourning
[02:18.08]My mind is my own hell
[02:21.54]But you gave me strength to love myself
[02:25.89]Don’t want to admit I need your help
[02:29.77]
[02:31.28]I just want to feel the beating of your chest
[02:36.09]Against my head again
[02:39.48]When I fall asleep
[02:41.26]Frayed and bleak
[02:43.07]I miss the way you held me close
[02:45.87]I’m finding it hard to cope without you
[02:49.70]I’m sorry I had to be this way
[02:52.87]
[02:53.21]I couldn’t help it, I’m not okay
[02:55.63]I’d rather die than watch you walk away
[02:59.79]I can see that you don’t love me
[03:04.41]It’s no longer hard to tell
[03:07.82]But all these chemicals in my brain
[03:11.55]They just don’t work that well
[03:15.05]I can’t argue that you’re leaving
[03:18.75]I don’t like even like myself that much
[03:22.25]So if I ever happen to drift off
[03:26.79]I hope I don’t wake up