[00:00.000] 作曲 : Alexander Stewart/Rollo/Adam Yaron [00:14.185] I've been tryin' so hard to survive [00:18.126] Sometimes I think that I wanna die [00:21.713] I feel so ****ing guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky to live my life [00:29.070] So I keep all the pain to myself [00:32.869] Losin' faith but nobody can tell [00:36.729] Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me [00:40.632] So I pretend I'm fine [00:42.948] [00:43.720] If you only knew [00:45.969] What my mind is tellin' me I should do [00:49.608] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight [00:53.626] I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh [00:58.691] If you only knew [01:01.075] All the shit my brain is puttin' me through [01:04.584] You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight [01:08.590] I'm sorry but I need you [01:13.730] If you only knew [01:15.727] [01:16.420] I wish I was somebody else [01:19.666] I'm constantly overwhelmed [01:23.647] Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends [01:27.350] It's a silent cry for help [01:30.050] [01:30.902] I wanna get better, I want you to know [01:34.408] That I can't do this on my own [01:37.196] [01:38.021] If you only knew [01:40.513] What my mind is tellin' me I should do [01:44.062] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight [01:47.975] I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh [01:53.018] If you only knew [01:55.668] All the shit my brain is puttin' me through [01:58.980] You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight [02:02.928] I'm sorry but I need you [02:07.206] [02:07.986] Take me out of this hell [02:10.824] Oh, somebody help [02:15.356] Take me out of this hell [02:18.523] Oh, I'm not myself [02:20.880] [02:23.145] I wanna tell you [02:25.226] What my mind is tellin' me I should do [02:29.089] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight [02:32.901] I'm too sad to cry but I want to [02:37.130] Oh, if you only knew